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I haven't blogged in a while, I know. Things have been busy. I've graduated, had to move out of my apartment and into P22's. It's been kinda stressful, especially with next weekend looming over our heads like a big, dark storm cloud. I'm just waiting for it to release a torrential downpour onto our lives.
The closer it comes, the worse it gets. Sometimes I think it'd be easier if I left now, just to cut out all the heartache to come. And yet, I know I can't walk away like that, I want to have every last minute together, and then some.
I know it's going to be hard, and stressful, and there's going to be times where one of us asks if it's even worth it, all the heartache. But the truth is, it will be worth it. I can't thing of a better thing to suffer so much for. I wish I could suffer for both of us, to take away the pain. I want to because I know my heart is strong enough to do it for a year... I could do it for five years if I had to, if I knew that when I came back we'd be together. But I can't, we have to do it together. And I'm really glad I have someone so awesome to do it with.
I love you and I believe in us so much...please don't leave me...ever...